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The
Last Poem About the Snow Queen
Then
it was that little Gerda walked into the Palace,
through
the great gates, in a biting wind...She saw Kay,
and
knew him at once; she flung her arms round his neck,
held
him fast, and cried, "Kay, little Kay, have I found you
at
last.
But he sat still, rigid and cold.
-Hans
Christian Andersen, "The Snow Queen"
You wanted
to know "love" in all its habitats, wanted
to catalog
the joints, the parts, the motions, wanted
to be a
scientist of romance: you said
you had
to study everything, go everywhere,
even here,
even
this ice
palace in the far north.
You said
you were ready, you'd be careful.
Smart girl,
you wore two cardigans, a turtleneck,
fur lined
boots, scarves,
a stocking
cap with jingle bells.
And over
the ice you came, gay as Santa,
singing
and bringing gifts.
Ah, but
the journey was long, so much longer
than you'd
expected, and the air so thin,
the sky
so high and black.
What are
these cold needles, what are these shafts of ice,
you wondered
on the fourteenth day.
What are
those tracks that glitter overhead?
The one
you came to see was silent,
he wouldn't
say "stars" or "snow,"
wouldn't
point south, wouldn't teach survival.
And you'd
lost your boots, your furs,
now you
were barefoot on the ice floes, fingers blue,
tears freezing
and fusing your eyelids.
Now you
know: this is the place
where water
insists on being ice,
where wind
insists on breathlessness,
where the
will of the cold is so strong
that even
the stone's desire for heat
is driven
into the eye of night.
What will
you do now, little Gerda?
Kay and
the Snow Queen are one, they're a single
pillar
of ice, a throne of silence -
and they
love you
the way
the teeth of winter
love the
last red shred of November. |
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